Yes! This is a breakthrough! I’ve actually started referring to myself as being middle aged without breaking into tears/a cold sweat/shivers.
I mean technically I am 39. I may live beyond 78 but I may not. So technically I am middle aged . It’s a fact. So why has it been so so hard for me to accept and come to terms with? It’s just a term, a couple of words. Why did I get myself all in a spin about it?
Well before I ponder that, I’m not alone. The Office for National Statistics in the UK reports that 40- to 59-year-olds are the most anxious age group. At 39 I’m headlong hurtling into statisticsville. So to identify whether I am likely to be the owner of a full on midlife crisis, I have found an article on the 40 signs of a midlife crisis ( must be true then) to identify if I am full on mid life crisis ready.
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OK so it probably doesn’t come as any surprise to you that we’re not immortal right? We’ve all got to die sometime. However when you’re in your teens and 20s that fact feels far away: You’re too busy concentrating on living life, making career moves, doing crazy stuff. Even as you move into your 30s you’re likely to be focusing on relationships, the next power move at work, maybe nesting with a new partner, or creating a family to be too worried. Then suddenly 40 starts creeping up and so does the thought you could be over halfway through this life you’ve created and strived for? Anyone else get the cold sweats? OK warning here, I’m going to be talking about death.
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This year, 40 years ago the world changed on it’s axis when I was launched into it, and now , 40 years later, the months are creeping by until my 40th birthday. I expected to feel fine about this, I was delighted with my 30th, and my 30s have been wonderful years for me, where I’ve romped in the Capital, returned to live nearer my family, met the love of my life and settled in the country. It’s also the decade that I found and embraced mindfulness and minimalism, and started living a lifestyle with less, meditating and living for now. So it’s fair to say out of the three decades of my life, it definitely takes first prize.
Continue reading “The Turning 40 series; Part 1, having a midlife moment”