Note: This post should have been posted the week I started eating mindfully – or trying to, but things have got in the way of me posting. So I’ve moved on a bit since then but new updates will be coming soon.
Well after a year of fretting over turning 40, my 41st year is going to be much more positive.
You may be totally phased now by the title of this post…what even is vibro acoustic technology?
The answer, in a nutshell, is that it’s sound, vibrations and images (the images affected by the vibrations and the sound and your voice and movements if you choose to interact that way), all pulled together into a space that you spend time in. The result is that this technology can help you relax, be mindful, feel calmer and has been used as a mindfulness therapy for people with mental health issues.
So I’m changing the format of my blogs a bit. I hope you don’t mind, but I’m bored of writing posts about how to meditate, or how to find mindfulness. Those posts are everywhere on the internet, and better people with more experience than me are writing them, so I want to try something new.
So I’m mixing it up…
Instead of informative blog posts about mindfulness, I’m going to write more about me. I know, exciting right? I’m going to write more about my experience of living mindfully. I might link up to some mindful experts, but sometimes I’ll just be telling you what works for me. I’ll also be sharing my life, and how I manage my mental health through mindfulness, which is the reason I found mindfulness in the first place.
Hopefully you’re still awake
For some of you I know you’ll still be looking for advice, or information about how to approach different aspects of mindfulness. So here’s the good bit. I’m going to be developing my mindful tools section of the website to make it lots bigger. I want the mindful hub to be exactly that…a hub full of useful information for people who could probably use a bit of mindfulness, or who already know about it but want to do more to live a mindful life
So I’m planning the following sections:
books – there are thousands of books on mindfulness, but I’ll be providing you with a reading list of the ones I’ve read, or that I know are well respected, well loved and recommended by other mindful people in the know
courses – an 8 week course is the recommended way to get into mindfulness and it’s how I started. There are some great ones out there, so I’ll be letting you know all about them
practice groups – One of the key differences to establishing mindful living rather than just doing a course and forgetting it is going to a regular group with others who want to be mindful. I’ll be listing these groups so let me know if there’s one in your area.
websites – All the best websites for finding out more about mindfulness, what it is and how it makes a difference, including all the great mindful bloggers
apps – there are so many apps out there to help your mindfulness
coaching – using mindfulness to change areas of your life you’re not happy with and set your self achievable goals
downloads – as well as my worksheets and e-books, there are loads more other booklets, e-books etc. and you’ll find these here
places to find meditations – places to try different meditations you can access on the internet, both paid and free
gifts and stuff to buy- there are some great gratitude journals, colouring books and mindful gifts to buy that mindful person in your life, so i’ll be linking to those too
Here’s where you come in
Got a book you loved that you can’t see on the list? been on a course that’s changed your life? running a practice group and want people to find out about it? Let me know and I’ll look at adding it. I want everything on the hub to be useful, really about mindfulness and something others can easily access. So jot a comment below with anything you’d like to share and I’ll check it out and add it if it’s relevant.
I’m still working full time, so it’s going to be a work in development for a while but I hope next year there’ll be loads of resources for you to access, to help you be your best self!
What about the blog?
Well I’m still going to be blogging. In fact I hope now I’ve got to grips with what I want the mindful hub to be I am hoping I will be blogging regularly. This post will be a weekly update on my life through all my mindful moments (check out mindfulhubuk on Instagram to see them as they happen).
As readers will also know I am also turning 40 very shortly ( I know it feels like a loooong time since I started mentioning it but in November I will in fact finally arrive at destination 40!) I am planning to start a new, year long mindful project which I’ll blog about too but I am planning to reveal all once I have stepped into my new decade.
So all that over with we can start the business of an actual weekly update
My week in mindful moments
So a mindful moment, or a #mindfulmoment if you’re using the hashtag on Instagram on Twitter (I’m kidding myself I’ve started a global viral hashtag or something) is something that reminds me either a) to use mindfulness in my daily life b) how grateful I am for what I have and for my life
So I started creating and tagging #mindfulmoment posts to help remind myself of these things, and to hopefully inspire others. If you’re following me on Instagram (just a reminder – mindfulhubuk) then you’ll know a lot of my mindful moments are in nature.
Nature is a massive reminder for me of how to’just be’. How can you be lost in thought and stressed when the wind is rippling on a lake, or rustling the leaves on a tree that’s hundred of years old and has stood the test of man’s (ridiculous at times) worries?
But this week I was also reminded to be mindful in two other ways:
my dishwasher blew up
Well it kept blowing the trip on our electric circuit meaning everything else kept switching off. We bought it second hand from the previous owners when we bought our house 18 months ago, so it wasn’t expensive, but we had loved being able to chuck everything in and switch it on.
So cue decision about what to do since we don’t have much money right now, and also cue either opportunity to get pi$$ed off with the universe for blowing up the dishwasher when we can’t afford to replace it.
Well old me would have lost it, got angry because we need a dishwasher, stormed off, calmed down and bought a new one on her credit card.
New me? Oh no…well I was still fed up that it’s broken right now, because to be fair I have loved having one and being able to put all the cat and dog bowls in there (4 cats and 2 dogs accumulate a LOT of washing up) but as I no longer have any credit cards the buying one on impulse is out of the question.
So we decided to try something really old fashioned…washing up as we go! No I know this is like from the 20th Century but we are actually finding it’s OK to not have a dishwasher. The bonus of not having one is we actually have more space in the kitchen. We’ve been able to change our table round to have it opened out more, which means it’s more comfortable to sit together and chat.
We didn’t NEED a dishwasher, we just liked having it. It’s one less thing to go wrong, one less thing to buy, fix and clean. So from a decluttering perspective I feel like I’ve upped my minimalist rating.
My reaction though is one that is better for my mental health – taking the time to see if we really feel it’s necessary. Stepping back from impulse spending and being aware that it is only a dishwasher, not a life ending scenario, which is how I would have reacted pre mindfulness.
My other mindful moment
I want to share with you the trip to our village beer festival yesterday. The annual Ulleskelf Beer Festival brings our village alive, and as well as giving me an opportunity to step out of my comfort zone, by meeting people I don’t know, and trying beers I wouldn’t usually try.
So stepping out of my comfort zone, meeting new people, and announcing ourselves as the’ only gays in the village’ (we aren’t actually as far as we know but we were the only ones there I believe) is difficult for me.
I am also quite rigid in my ideas sometimes of what I like and don’t like so when offered a chocolate tasting stout was ready to announce ‘ I don’t like stout’. The whole point of going to a beer festival though is trying different things isn’t it? So I put my little ‘try new things’ head on and had a try. It was called Swoon and tasted really chocolatey. It wasn’t what I’d usually drink but I have to confess I really liked it.
I felt warm and happy and my mindful moment came when I realised how a) it’s important to be part of a community. Whether that’s your geographical community, a like minded community of people similar to you. It could be a family community, or a community of friends, but actually that a feeling of belonging is crucial to my wellbeing. b) stepping out of my comfort zone and what I think I like and don’t like is important for me. That fits with the beginners mind tool we use in mindfulness, where you drop assumptions about a situation or a feeling or an experience, and see it with new eyes , without judgement.
I’m on a journey, and no doubt there will be many more downs, some lovely ups, and lots more times when I need to bring myself back to mindfulness, to anchor myself here firmly in the present but I can honestly say I’m really enjoying the experience of practicing mindful living too!
I’m in the process of writing a number of articles, books and workbooks about mindfulness and mindful living, and each time I seem to come back to a hurdle: what actually is mindful living? what is mindfulness? How do I explain these ideas to someone who’s maybe only heard them in passing, never heard of them, or heard of them a few times but has no idea what they actually are?
I am trying to be more mindful in all areas of my life, and spending and eating are probably the most two challenging of those areas for me. I am turning 40 this year, and this has helped me look at my life and what I want to achieve in the next decade. Still having debt is not one of my aims, funnily enough.
I didn’t know it was international happiness day today? Did you? I found out when someone in our mindful practice group bought in lovely stickers to give us all. That got us thinking, what makes us happy? We came up with a long list (which you’ll see featured on The Mindful Hub soon) of nourishing activities but for now to get your happiness juices flowing here’s five reasons to be happy on International Happiness Day…
I’m presuming some of the people who read my blog are mindfulness practitioners. After all if you’re not, then a blog about mindfulness and practicing it might not tick any boxes for you.
So if you are you will probably have experienced at some point in your practice the resistance to meditation. For newbies to meditation it is in essence taking time out from thinking – to focus either on a guided meditation, or a sound, or silence.
If you are a beginner, or even just a bit curious the fact that it centres on meditation might even be putting you off; a bunch of hippies in a room chanting ‘Om’ not your cup of tea?
Thankfully meditation has moved on since the 70s, but I have still found it really hard to maintain a daily practice. Remember when you were young and it was exam time? Your bedroom never looked so tidy. That displacement technique we used then I am using now to full effect. Why meditate when I can load the dishwasher? Why meditate when I can take the dogs for a walk? Why meditate when I can make coffee and watch Netflix on my iPad?
There’s a very good, very frustrating answer to why I meditate, and why it would help you if you’re looking for a calmer, more peaceful way of living. It makes a massive difference. The head space I find when I meditate brings peace of mind, calmness and somehow more ability to cope with what life throws at me. It even throws in little insights into my world when I’m not even looking. Even though some days thoughts fly in and out of my head at a faster speed than Concorde ever did. You see I don’t think meditation comes naturally. It’s not something you can sit down first time and ‘do’. You aren’t suddenly going to have a mind as clear as crystal after you’ve done 10 minutes. It takes many sittings and many practices to master it, and even then you can find yourself finding it really bloody difficult to concentrate on the breath. But every breath makes a difference.
So why I find so many other reasons not to meditate? I guess it’s resistance to change, and it takes up time. There’s a school of thought that 10 minutes a day is enough to make a different – great. However I want to teach mindfulness so I need to have a much longer daily practice. Secondly it’s not always easy. When you’ve had a bad day at work , to clear your head of what your boss said to you and who’s used all the paperclips this week can be tough. But not meditating will be tougher on you in the long run. I have now ruminated, tidied just about everything, and have found solutions on how to make it easier to meditate. Here’s five tips to share with you to help get you started or back on track
Find a time and stick to it – If you make meditation a habit, it’s more likely to stick. I now get up at 6:20 (precisely!) for my meditation because even though I am not particularly a morning person, I know that as many times as I’ve tried to do it in the evening I never succeed; when I come home I want to eat, chill and sleep.
Use guided meditations – if you practice meditation for a while, it’s easier to sit in silence and listen to just your breath. However particularly when you first get going, and even when you’ve been practicising for a time, it’s nice to do different meditations on different aspects; from compassion, to mindfulness meditations for peace, improved sleep, mindful eating – you name it there’s a meditation for it. Check out either headspace app for a meditation subscription that’s easy to do (there’s a 30 day free trial too to see if you like it), or go to Youtube where you access tonnes of free meditations on just about everything.
Make a physical space – It can be hard to clear your mind if you’re sitting in a cluttered room surrounded by dirty washing, toys or other clutter. If you have the space – make a specific area where you can practice – with a favourite chair, or a meditation cushion, you can make a little space with things that help you meditate; a picture of something that inspires you, pebbles or crystals if you’re so inclined, a candle or an oil burner. If you’re like me and live in a small home with no permanent space- I meditate in bed in the morning sitting upright- but with a pebble that I was given from my mindfulness training, and a lotus wax melt burner that emits a lovely fragrance. It’s something that sets the space
Keep a journal – If you want to work out if meditation is working for you, keep a journey. When you’re regularly practicing and you’re writing about hoe you’re feeling, compare that to when you have a lapse, or you can’t regularly practice and see the difference.
Find a buddy – Lots of things are better with two – if you prefer to perhaps go to a meditation group, or have a friend who’s also interested you can work together to remind each other to meditate, talk about how it’s working for you or recommend different meditations.
Finally don’t give up. Getting a meditation practice to last is a work in progress. Believe me I am still working on it. Eventually it will become a habit and the benefits you will get from meditating will be the difference.
Have you got any tips on how to keep a meditation practice going?
The course is in three parts; the actual ‘mindfulness’ bit which was four weekends, teacher training skills and a five day teaching retreat. The main body of the first part of the course is run in Scarborough which gave the added bonus of training by the sea. So win win really! The course is secular, but is taught by two fabulous women, one who is a Buddhist Nun and the wisdom and compassion that came from them both had a massive impact on me.
Oh how naive I was when I started the course. Swaggering into the Holiday Inn where the foundation weekend was held thinking ‘I know all about mindfulness and I am just coming to this so I can get onto the Mindfulness Teachers list’. Cue a year later having had my eyes opened beyond measure to how blind I was to the depths of mindfulness.
I had already done some mindfulness training which to be honest changed my life. Before I I came to mindfulness I suffered with depression, anxiety, I impulsively spent money, and I lived in a chaotic whirlwind of emotions. Having completed an eight week mindfulness course I started practicing the techniques I’d learnt and started seeing the benefits almost instantly; I felt calmer, clearer headed and started learning to live in the present. I found it so life changing I wanted to help others come to mindfulness.
Back to the Holiday Inn…another intensive mindfulness course that would be the first step on the pathway to teaching others. The first weekend covered many basics I already knew; living in the present, meditation and awareness. Nothing too new. Then weekend two came along and oh boy…compassion.
Now compassion is something I have in spades usually. For others. Ask me to be compassionate to myself and then we start to have a problem, but a big part of this course was about self compassion. A lot of self compassion. This course was where I realised I really didn’t love myself. I wasn’t even sure liking myself was even part of the equation, and it hurt. It really hurt. I pushed against it, I felt blocked in trying to do the exercises. I rebelled against the silent practice and went to sit with the seagulls. I cried in front of a lot of almost strangers. Two weekends went by where compassion were a big part of the work we were doing. Compassion to self and others is a big part of mindfulness , as it should be, to be able to be kind to yourself and to others, even those you really don’t have much time for is a great gift, but it’s not easy.
In between weekends we had to practice the different practices we were learning, read books on mindfulness, meditate and generally open ourselves up the mindfulness journey we had started. I could do this for many areas; demonstrating mindful movement in the practice groups I run, reading more and trying to get a regular meditation practice in place, but somehow I skirted around compassion, finding it too hard to contemplate.
I loved the other work, the acceptance, the mindful movement, the meditation practices, the observing of thoughts, and even though it’s a work in progress I have started to make peace with myself. Weekend four was this last weekend. We pulled together everything we’d been learning and practicing, and suddenly something shifted. I felt ready to start being kind to myself. After all why don’t I deserve that? There’s something fundamental in most of us that feel being kind to ourselves is indulgent but it’s absolutely crucial to our wellbeing. Without compassion to ourselves and to others how can we bring out the best in ourselves and others?
Ironically I now feel ready to have a full mindful practice. I will talk more in another post about the changes that I have already put in place this week to find joy in the present moment.
Are there any parts of mindfulness you are particularly interested in? What have you struggled most with?
Looking forward to my teaching skills weekends starting in June…watch this space!
I used to set a lot of new years resolutions. A lot. Then I realised that I didn’t keep to them and that made me feel shitty. I asked myself, why don’t I keep to my new years resolutions? The answer was usually because I was looking for the moon on a stick and actually I could be a bit more realistic.
So now I still set myself something to achieve, but I call them goals. I set them small. The idea being that;
They’re realistic for what I can achieve
I can see my progress
I can set a time for them
They’re clear and I know what they mean. in the business world this would be SMART. See…?
They’re clear and I know what they mean (S)
I can see my progress (M)
They’re achievable (A)
They’re realistic for what I can achieve (R)
I can set a time for them (T)
Anyone can do this. You can too. If you’re feeling down in the dumps about winter, or about not sticking to any one of a million things you haven’t done that your peers and the media tell you that you should be achieving e.g. making a high salary, driving a big car, losing five stone in a month, annihilating all cellulite. STOP! Take a deep breath and set yourself some realistic goals. When we achieve something, we get a shot of feel good stuff, which makes us feel better. So why don’t we set things we can achieve? Well these days we’re often told to achieve the unachievable, to reach for the stars. To believe. I’m all for believing, but sometimes it’s about the little things. The small , achievable stuff that helps you get to those constellations.
Here’s my goals for 2017…
Catch up with the people I haven’t seen for ages (I took the word all out of this – not achievable). I’m really looking forward to seeing people I haven’t literally seen for years.
To eat better (So here’s the thing. I’m overweight. Very. But I refuse to set myself a goal to diet. Everything about dieting is negative. It’s reductive. It says there’s something wrong in the first place. It makes you think about food just about 24/7. I want to love my body, to treasure it, and to want to look after it. How can I do that if I hate it? So I want to eat better food, more grains, more pulses, more fruit and veg. Less processed stuff. I want to feed myself well. Try catching up with minimal wellness if you’re interested in this.
Which brings me onto my next goal
To give myself more self compassion. I’m doing a mindfulness course at the moment, and when I started I naively thought, oh this will be easy I’ve been practicing mindfulness for a while. It’s just a process. Until I got to self compassion. Whoa that hit me like a train. I don’t actually have any for myself. When asked to give myself some, I broke down. I had literal pain in my chest. So I need to work on that. Being kinder to ourselves is something most of us needs to do. This year I’ll be reading the book The Mindful Path to Self Compassion.
And you know what? That’s it. There’s loads of other things I want to do. I want to get a camper van and travel off round Britain rather than work. I want to be debt free. I want the perfect clematis cover on my trellis this summer. I want to work in a job that doesn’t involve 9 to 5. Actually that’s all pretty overwhelming isn’t it? If I tried to do all those things at once I’d blow a brain gasket. So instead I will set my intentions to achieve these things, and let them organically develop (I hope) in the background while I get on with my goals. If you’d like to try some goals, remember
be SMART. There’s a reason all the business gurus focus on SMART. Because it works.
Start small and achievable. If you’ve got loads of debt and want to eradicate it, start with a credit card, or a catalogue debt with the highest interest and set clearing that as your goal
Have fun. Life isn’t meant to be boring, so have fun with your goals. If you want to see more of the world, create a pinterest board and pin your favourite locations. Set up a travel fund and siphon a bit of your income away each month to achieve your travels. If it goes out directly from your salary you’ll notice it less.
Don’t quit if it doesn’t go to plan. If you find yourself not able to achieve your goals, or you feel you might have set the wrong goals, change it up. They’re your goals. Own them, know them and then kick their ass!
Let me know what goals your setting this year, and good luck with them